Music - Songs for the Parts of You That Don’t Have Words Yet

I write music for the liminal spaces - the nights where you’re too aware to numb out, too awake to lie to yourself, and too stubborn to give up.

A lot of my work lives in essays and tools. These songs are where the same ideas go when they want to be felt instead of analyzed.

Scroll down, pick a song, and let your nervous system do the rest.

Featured Track

Everyone’s Just Scared

A confessional arc from cynicism to compassion - about the moment you realize that anger is usually just fear in a louder outfit. For the bullies, the bad bosses, and the ghosts, and the struggling kid inside all of them.

empathyanger as fearvulnerabilitydefense mechanismscompassionthe inner child
Album

Patch Notes for Humans (Vol. 1)

A lyrical changelog for the human condition - songs about breaking patterns, remembering who you are, and learning how to stay kind to yourself while the world accelerates.

Think of it as release notes for your nervous system: bug fixes for self-loathing, performance improvements for self-compassion, and experimental features for cosmic gratitude.

1.Brain Gremlins Anonymous

playful, self-aware, warmly chaotic, reassuring

A support-group anthem for the anxious, overthinking, self-roasting brain. Part comedy, part group hug, all about making peace with the gremlins in your head instead of pretending they’re not there.

self-acceptanceanxietyinner critic

2.Patch Notes for Humans

warm, hopeful, meta-humorous, gently existential, uplifting

A changelog for the human condition - a warm, meta-humorous anthem about growth, glitches, emotional bug fixes, and the messy beauty of updating yourself one patch at a time.

growthself-compassiondebugging the psyche

3.Hey, We're Trying

gentle, self-deprecating, hopeful, cozy existential, bittersweet-funny

A soft, self-aware anthem for everyone stumbling through self-help, burnout, and ‘be your best self’ culture - turning missed alarms, messy attempts, and cosmic perspective into a brave, funny kind of hope.

imperfect growthself-compassionmodern burnout

4.Chaos But Make It Collaborative

chaotic-whimsical, upbeat, communal, warm, energetic, group-improv optimism

A joyful, chaotic anthem about turning collective mess into music. Life as a jam session, mistakes as riffs, and friendship as synchronized improvisation when the train’s on fire but the view is spectacular.

collective chaosimprovised lifefriendship-as-art

5.Under Construction (Hard Hats Required)

warm, intimate, tender, self-revealing, hopeful, soft-light emotional architecture

A soft, glowing anthem about rebuilding yourself in real time and inviting someone into the beautiful, unfinished mess. Vulnerability as architecture. Healing as home renovation. Safety as showing up unfinished.

healingself-reconstructionmessy honesty

6.Dear Gremlin (A Love Letter to My Inner Critic)

tender, introspective, healing, warm, gentle, emotionally intelligent, inner-child reconciliation

A soft, heart-opening letter to the inner critic-seeing the gremlin not as a villain, but as a frightened, loyal protector who never learned a better way to love you. A song about rewriting the script between you and the oldest voice you carry.

self-compassionshadow integrationhealing the inner critic

7.It's Okay If I Don't Know How (Yet)

gentle, reassuring, slow-bloom hopeful, contemplative, soft resilience

A soft, reassuring hymn for the in-between - giving permission to not have it all figured out yet, to move slowly, to keep walking without a finished map, and to treat ‘not knowing’ as part of becoming, not a failure.

self-compassionuncertaintyprocess over perfection

8.The Downbeat is Beautiful

slow, spacious, contemplative, warm, gentle melancholy, luminous quiet

A soft, contemplative meditation on rest, stillness, and the beauty of the quiet moments that give life its rhythm. A reminder that the pauses, lows, and downbeats are as essential to the song of being human as the crescendos.

rest and recoverysilence as healingnon-doing

9.Proof of Life

tender, life-affirming, steady, quietly epic, hopeful in the dark

A quiet, defiant anthem for the days when simply waking up is an achievement. This song treats existence itself as a miracle, honoring breath, heartbeat, and survival as enough proof that you matter.

suicidal ideation bufferradical permission to existtiny victories

10.Breathing in the Big Bang

awe-struck, cosmic, sacred, expansive, contemplative, ecstatic quiet

A cosmic, breath-centered hymn that reframes existence as an ongoing conversation with the universe. A reminder that every inhale is starlight returning home - and that being alive is an ancient, sacred continuation of the first explosion.

cosmic identityexistential wonderunity consciousness

11.Try Again Tomorrow

gentle, weary-hopeful, consoling, late-night resolve, soft resilience

A quiet, late-night promise to keep going-without heroics. This song reframes rest as bravery, ‘not quitting’ as simply trying again tomorrow, and being unfinished as a state that’s still completely lovable.

rest as couragetrying againburnout and recovery
Album

The Dreamer & The Dream

A concept album told from the perspective of the universe itself - the Sky, the Ocean, the Forest, War, Decay, and Fire each take the mic to deliver the lessons we forgot we already knew.

Nine tracks. Nine archetypes. One realization: every force you thought was outside of you was a reflection all along. This is the sound of consciousness remembering itself.

1.The Mirror of My Breath

ethereal, primordial, vast, aching, cosmic

The opening chapter of The Dreamer & The Dream - a primordial hymn sung from the perspective of the Creator before the universe began, exploring the idea that consciousness fractured itself just to learn what love could survive.

panpsychismcreationconsciousness

2.The Laughing Sky

warm, playful, reassuring, expansive, gently joyful

The lightest moment on the album - the Cosmos speaks not as a cold void, but as a playful protector, laughing not at your smallness but at the absurdity of you ever thinking you weren’t wanted here.

cosmic safetywonderinsignificance reframed

3.The Forest Remembers

grounded, ancient, tender, quietly powerful, intimate

The archetype of Nature and Memory takes the stage - a grounding force that reassures you that nothing real is ever truly lost, only transformed. Your identity isn’t fleeting; it’s growth rings, each one protecting the last.

memoryidentity persistencegrief as transformation

4.The Tide That Returns

bittersweet, expansive, tender, aching, redemptive

An anthem sung from the perspective of the Ocean, reframing the pain of distance in love. Sometimes pulling away isn’t abandonment - it’s the only way to keep two people from dissolving into one.

love and distanceenmeshmenthealthy separation

5.The Line I Hold

heavy, resolute, militaristic, disciplined, aching

The archetype of War, but not as conquest - as boundaries. The moment the psyche stops abandoning itself and finally says ‘Enough.’ A heavy, militaristic anthem for everyone who was taught that keeping the peace is always a virtue.

boundarieswar as self-defensethe cost of peace-keeping

6.Let It Go

somber, earthy, gentle, intimate, funereal, redemptive

The voice of Decay speaks - not as a villain, but as the most intimate force in nature. A lullaby for the end of things, reframing rot not as failure but as the dark that feeds the ground.

decay as intimacyletting gothe sacredness of endings

7.Light Finds Me Still

somber, ascending, golden, reverent, triumphant

A spiritual successor to epic, grounded scores - an anthem for the survivor. Built on the Japanese concept of Kintsugi, it tells the story of a broken god who mended the cracks with gold and discovered that healing isn’t going back. It’s becoming.

kintsugihealing after catastropheresilience

8.What I Become Next

aggressive, driving, volcanic, intentional, fierce

The most aggressive track on the album - Fire reframed from destruction into intention. A volcanic anthem about choosing who you’re going to be before you’re ready, because ‘waiting to be whole is just another cage.’

agencyfire as intentionmobilization

9.The Dreamer & The Dream

massive, revelatory, transcendent, thunderous, unifying

The title track and grand finale. After traveling through the perspectives of the Sky, Ocean, Forest, War, Decay, and Fire, the narrator asks the ultimate question - ‘Who was I talking to?’ - and the answer arrives like thunder: ‘It was all me.’

integrationself-realizationgod as consciousness
EP

Beat Born Sage

Comedic conscious hip-hop from a hilariously chill, suspiciously wise character who stumbles into enlightenment sideways - part spiritual seeker, part glitchy monk, all groove.

Self-help for the chronically freed. Parental Advisory: Ridiculous Content.

1.Beat Born Sage

chaotic, euphoric, self-aware, absurdist, groovy, cosmically unserious

The title track and origin story of the Beat Born Sage - a hilariously chill, suspiciously wise character who stumbles into enlightenment sideways, argues with God about finances, and treats the groove as the only gospel that actually delivers.

accidental enlightenmentoverthinking as lifestylecosmic comedy

2.This Was Not The Instruction

bewildered, buoyant, absurdist, warmly resigned, groovy

The sequel to Beat Born Sage - a track about doing every single self-improvement step correctly and still getting rerouted to 'Ambiguous Growth.' A hymn for everyone whose progress bar has jumped back two and whose enlightenment trial just expired.

spiritual debuggingself-help absurdityimperfect progress
Album

Apocalypse Ballet

A journey through the wreckage of a digital world - hybrid orchestral meets cinematic bass in twelve instrumental tracks that progress from precise arrangements through chaotic destruction to eventual resolution.

The soundtrack to a world ending beautifully. Blends hybrid orchestral, melodic dubstep, and neoclassical into something that makes you want to cry and headbang simultaneously.

1.Echoes of the End

cinematic, devastating, atmospheric, immense, inevitable

What happens when an orchestra accepts its fate and walks into the digital void. A massive cinematic opener that sets the tone for the entire album - equal parts requiem and rave.

epic finaledigital decayemotional deterioration

2.The Curtain Falls

dramatic, theatrical, brooding, resurgent

The dramatic second act. After seven years of creative silence - roughly the gestation period of an existential crisis - the curtain falls not as an ending, but as the prelude to something heavier.

theatrical collapsecreative resurrectiondramatic tension

3.Motion of the Lotion

mystical, intense, hypnotic, percussive, summoning-adjacent

A Middle-Eastern orchestral/EDM fusion track that accidentally summoned a sand-based deity. If your furniture starts vibrating or you feel compelled to start a cult, that's on you.

Middle Eastern fusiondesert mythologyritual energy

4.Clockwork Logic

mechanical, monolithic, precise, crushing, architectural

What happens when you try to build a simple cello melody but forget to carry the one and accidentally construct a brutalist skyscraper out of sound waves.

sonic architecturebrutalism in soundcello as weapon

5.Blunt Force Lullaby

deceptive, tender-then-violent, surreal, heavy, contradictory

An attempt to write a nice, soothing song that remembered sleep is for the weak and decided to rattle your windows instead. Starts like a hug, ends like a wrestling move.

contrast as conceptgentle destructionsonic whiplash

6.Waltz of the Weird

eerie, playful, off-kilter, spooky, danceable

The apocalypse needed a ballroom scene, but all the dancers had two left feet and were made of scrap metal. A waltz in 3/4 time that's as eerie as it is danceable.

3/4 time chaosapocalyptic ballroomscrap metal elegance

7.Birds of Prey

predatory, soaring, violent, orchestral, relentless

Instructions unclear: tried to record a symphony, accidentally summoned a glitch demon from the fifth dimension. Left the recording running because the demon had pretty good rhythm.

digital violence meets symphonyaerial assaultglitch demon collaboration

8.Requiem for a Subwoofer

aggressive, irreverent, punishing, formally chaotic

What happens when you accidentally spill energy drink into a mixing console during an orchestral composition. A possessed conductor prioritizing bass over emotional resonance - tuxedo formality meets basketball shorts informality.

orchestral trapbass worshiptuxedo meets basketball shorts

9.Chasing the First Light

hopeful, driving, longing, heroic, bruised

The sound of sprinting toward hope before you're entirely sure hope exists. The orchestra is still brushing rubble off its shoulders, the synths are pretending they're not traumatized, and the drums have committed to a hero's-journey montage you weren't prepared for.

hope after destructionthe hero's sprintemotional resilience

10.Letting Go

cathartic, releasing, bittersweet, expansive, weightless

The exhale after nine tracks of holding your breath. A cathartic release that trades the album's characteristic weight for something approaching weightlessness - the moment where destruction stops and acceptance begins.

releaseemotional unburdeningsurrender as strength

11.The Long Way Home

nostalgic, adventurous, bittersweet, epic, emotionally confused in the best way

Couldn't decide between a folk song and a dubstep banger, so this became neither - and somehow both. A confusingly emotional journey that makes you want to hug your friends and immediately headbang. Genre: Melodic Existentialism.

melodic existentialismnostalgiathe scenic route

12.New Beginnings

hopeful, heavy, luminous, resolute, undeniably shiny

The album closer. For that moment when you finally decide to get your life together, right before you realize how much work that's actually going to take. Optimistic, heavy, and undeniably shiny.

rebirthoptimistic weightthe morning after the apocalypse
Album (In Progress)

Reborn

A sonic journey designed to feel like a flight across Planet Earth. Downtempo electronic meets neoclassical cello and ethereal female vocalese in six tracks that move from sky to ocean to city lights.

Close your eyes. Put on headphones. Let the altitude do the rest.

1.Reborn

soaring, cinematic, vast, meditative, weightless

The opening chapter - a sonic journey designed to feel like a flight across Planet Earth. Neoclassical cello meets downtempo electronics in a track that lifts you off the ground before you realize you've left it.

flightPlanet Earthsonic journey

2.Vast

expansive, golden, open, longing, serene

Inspired by a drive through the endless horizons of Saskatchewan - that moment when you crest a hill at sunset and the landscape stretches so far it forgets to end. Solo cello meets cinematic electronics in an ode to open space.

open landscapesSaskatchewan horizonsthe open road

3.Pillars

grounded, towering, reverent, structural, epic

The structural spine of the album - exploring the connection between the ground and the sky. Where 'Vast' moved horizontally across the landscape, 'Pillars' looks up, tracing the vertical line from earth to atmosphere.

earth and skystructural spineconnection

4.Weightless

submerged, floating, luminous, intimate, oceanic

After soaring across landscapes and looking up at the sky, the album descends. The piano feels submerged, like listening to music from the bottom of the ocean, while vocal chops drift like light breaking through the surface.

underwater immersiondepthsuspended gravity

5.Better Together

warm, uplifting, communal, building, celebratory

The human chapter. After four tracks of landscapes, oceans, and sky, the album finally looks at people. Acoustic guitars and driving percussion build from intimate beginnings into a full celebration of connection and resilience.

human connectionresilience togethercelebration of people

6.Phoenix

melancholic, hopeful, nocturnal, deep, ascending

A soundtrack for the quiet hours. The space between melancholy and hope, blending atmospheric textures with deep basslines and ethereal vocal chops. The feeling of a late-night drive where city lights blur into streaks of color.

rising from asheslate-night drivesmelancholy meets hope

Singles

1.Breaking the Pattern

cathartic, resolute, emotionally raw, quietly triumphant

A cathartic anthem about outgrowing the identity you built just to survive - and finally choosing to live, not perform. Equal parts confession, resilience, and rebirth.

self-reconstructionidentitypattern-breaking

Everyone’s Just Scared

confessional, evolving, tender, raw, quietly hopeful

A confessional arc from cynicism to compassion - about the moment you realize that anger is usually just fear in a louder outfit. For the bullies, the bad bosses, and the ghosts, and the struggling kid inside all of them.

empathyanger as fearvulnerability

Built Like Rivers

gritty, anthemic, defiant, soulful, liberating

An anthem for the ones who refuse to stay contained. About accepting your nature even when the world tells you to be quiet - because a river never asks permission. It just remembers what it’s drawn toward.

authenticitypassion as designrefusing containment

How We Hurt Each Other

vulnerable, clinical, devastating, intimate, unsentimental

Not a song about villains - a song about mechanisms. For anyone who has turned to stone while their partner’s volume went up. A devastating, clinically honest exploration of how two nervous systems in love can destroy each other without meaning to.

attachment theoryanxious-avoidant dynamicsnervous system responses

Read Every Room But My Own

self-lacerating, witty, confessional, unflinching, ultimately hopeful

About the gap between knowing and doing. Between talking about courage and actually practicing it. A self-lacerating, wickedly honest anthem for every smart person who has ever used insight as a substitute for intimacy.

hypocrisy of self-awarenessknowing vs doingperformative growth

The Voltage in the Vein

electric, triumphant, relentless, unapologetic, kinetic

Look, not every song needs to be a dissertation. Sometimes you just need sound waves that go boom and dopamine that goes ding. This is that song. Pure voltage. No apologies.

pure energymomentumunapologetic ambition

Static of Gods

heavy, industrial, transcendent, sacrilegious, cathartic

About the moment you outgrow borrowed meaning. When the gods, ideals, and past versions of yourself stop transmitting truth and start transmitting noise. Not a rejection of faith, but a demand for honesty - and the refusal to outsource your agency to a sky that has gone silent.

outgrowing borrowed meaningidentity forged in staticrefusing false authority